30 may...

everyday i feel like i m getting more n more alone ...dont know y ...i was a person who so easily use to trust others but now i think i cant even feel like talking to some one while assuming that he or she is sincere to me........

miss bhaktawar....
miss my mom....
miss uzma...
then confused with the idea that she used me n my emotions 4 her marriage....
then again cares abt her...
i used all my efforts ,contacts,energies ,love n care 4 her happiness n now when i need her she cares abt her personal life only ...wat the life think abt itself wat i m ...m i a toyy....
n abu he just cares abt her ,,...never bothered me....
i hate my too much sentimental nature...
i m a emotional fool
...bcoz ppl use make me fool through my emotions....
again missed my mom,...
missed my dadi
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missed amna...
yyyyyyyyyyy
yy i akways miss others
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when the that day ill come when other ill miss me
....ALLAH i want my revenage from all of them...
plz let me die 4 4 ever...
so may be they ill miss be or may be its just my assumption they ill more happier after knowing that no one is here to bug them thiz much.......
i want to weep tooo loudd...
something hurts me a lkot
...i m not geeting it wat exactly it is...
i want to leave thz most rubbish world asap...
now its in ur hand u r supposed to be my best friend
...ALLAH i m talking to u
..............i think its good that i cant see u bcoz if i could see u may be it was hard 4 me to realize that u r not with me like others..... but u r not like others..
u never insulted me...
never disgraced me...
not even at my sins...
not even at my mistakes...
not even when i use to mis behave with u...
u r still giving me food...
money..
water...
breath....
thoughts
...ehsaas..
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y u r so different to others may be bcoz u r a GOD
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i think u ill forgive me again

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now i m relaxed
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a long breath................
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i want to come to u...
but when i put my knees down n try to concentrate on the prayer ...i cant feel like praying it well.............
yyyyyyyyyyy
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i need peace.............
peace of mind...........
no hastle bastle in my thoughts

...i must mention it that ppl @ woek place r realy rude to me they insulted me i dont want to stay with thm do something 4 me plz find a good job 4 me...
plz

...ajj hi kuch keroo ALLAH...
PLZ ...
u know u r the one from whom i beg 4 my everythings..
desires,dreams,,,passions,,,,....n life
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i love abu ,uzma,haktawar n alll ...n his love is ur gift i know i m thankful to u 4 thiz...
ok me going my boss assigned me work so i have to workkk on thiz n that by him...


....i want to be a boss soon

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when i ill be a boss?

tell me

ohhh again one more wish i......

Invictus

“Out of the night that covers me, Black as the pit from pole to pole, I thank whatever gods may be, For my unconquerable soul. In the fell clutch of circumstance, I have winced but not cried aloud. Under the bludgeonings of chance, My head is bloodied but unbowed. Beyond this place of wrath and tears, Looms but the horror of the shade. And yet the menace of the years, Finds, and shall find me, unafraid.It matters not how strait the gate, How charged with punishments the scroll, I am the master of my fate, I am the captain of my soul."Invictus," by William Earnest Henley

woman

What do you think about women? Some people don’t think a lot of them what do you think?‘Perhaps the greatest sin in the whole world, is to abuse the fact that a woman loves you. When a woman loves, she gives herself fully to you. She doesn’t care about a lot; all she wants in return is your love and attention. Give that to a woman, and you have the pinnacle of devotion known only to Gods. Don’t, and you lose everything, your respect, your dignity and her love. Think not that she is a slave. Just because she feels she belongs to you doesn’t mean she actually does. Her freedom is hers, and your rights are yours. To find a perfect balance between her freedom, and your rights is called marriage. If you give her respect, and treat her like a partner rather than a servant, you will find yourself in a place where there is someone to share your happiness, and someone to hold you when you grieve. You will find that there is someone who will help you through even in your toughest moments, often taking hardships on herself to protect you. She will take care of you and take care of herself. This is a task that many of us cannot even imagine. It is in feminine nature to see that all things are in order. If they are not, the adrenaline sprouts and takes over, until all things are complete. It is because of this trait that I respect and love the entity called ‘Woman’.

safar

Zindagi k safar mein koi rasta nahe deta, zameen wakif nahin bante falak saya nahin deta ,khushi or dukh k mausam sab k apne apne hote hein kisi ko apne hesay ka koi lamha nahin deta udasi jis k dil mein hou ussi ki neend urtii hai kisi ko apni ankhoon sey koi sapna nahin deta,uthana khud hi parta hai thaka tota wajood apna,k jub tak saans chalti hai koi kandha nahin deta….